Well, as any of you who read my journal may know, last month, the love of my life decided to end the best thing that ever happened to me... she is now with one of my friends and apparently happy with him... since her and him got together, I have heard nearly nothing from him. I speak with her every so often... but I hurt inside every day... I really do just want her to be happy, and part of me is happy that she seems happy, but the rest of me aches for the fact that she is gone, and the fact that I'm not the one that is making her happy.
I've learned that another friend of mine is in a deep depression as well, and I want badly to be able to pull myself through mine so that I can help him get through his. I have no clue why he is, just THAT he is.
I do have some small hope that my love may be getting returned in thought at least and memory, but I wish against every star aligned against me that she will come back to me and complete my heart once again, and again, make me the happiest I have EVER been in my life. I know that I have been happy, but she gave me sheer joy! I loved every moment with her, I would wake up every morning wondering how I could try to make her day brighter, and expecting the love that she gave freely to me in return. But right now my heart feels like a pitcher pouring my love endlessly onto the floor, because the woman that was receiving it has moved away from me and into the arms of another man.
I do apologize if my post has depressed you, or made your day gloomy, but if you are any bit religious... please pray for my friend, pray for me, and pray for my love, she deserves to be happy, one way or another.